Is this love?

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

Wed, 20June07

DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE!!!!!!!!!!!!
Mr Lim is so gonna kill me.....and i'm not joking....i went to the arts camp instead of the rehearsal...but the arts camp or shold i say drama was like damn fun lor....and we like paid $10 for it....if don't go we'll be wasting our money.....somemore the rest of the cca leaders involve in the arts camp are not going to the rehearsal!!!!!!!!!!I'm like so super pissed off....i don't care i'm gonna say this.....all the teachers are like so biased....what's wrong with a bronze choir....ya i know choir is like not a very good cca among the performing arts....but singing chorally requires lots of unity...lots of discipline and they are like so particular about everything....so what if we are lousy...at least we tried our best and maintained the standard....i'm like so bloody fed up with all this....it's like who appointed me as the president....it's like i'm so willing to be one....puke man....i love choir....but can i just have a break....it's like being forced underwater....i can't take it man....i really can't....i've been like tolerating every single thing....i have my limits and don't go beyond it....why is everything choir's fault....even when it isn't....it just have to be our fault....i know choir's discipline is like six.....but can't you use your eyes to see the seniors are trying their very best to discipline choir...it's like all efforts have gone down the drain....we give orders...we scold....we give instructions....but do some of the members give a damn...do they even listen....NO not at all....and i just wanna say....rebekah is not fierce....but i can be when i'm damn bloody pissed off...and now i am....so please spare me....i don't wanna burst out...and i don't wanna break down......i have my own personal problems too.....but i couldn't bring it into choir....i just can't.....it's like when i'm like damn moody and down on a choir day....i still have to look so stable and calm and strong and tough in front of all these people....i'm like wearing a stupid mask.....i hate it....can't i just be myself....be the real rebekah lim...the one who'll laugh like hell...crap like an idiot....talk like never before....cries freely when sad.....and many many more.....i'm like living in hell....please....i need a break....i simply need one.....

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